Notebook Malfunction of '08.

I am in an excellent mood because Grilled Cheese Boy? Did shit with the fat chick HAHA!! Then got stuck doing the walk of shame because we ditched him because we were tired of waiting for him to get his rocks off. BAHHHHH So amazing.

Today I did laundry and forgot to check the pockets. Hence the title. There was wet paper bits everywhere.

Drank Margaritas with Jordon yesterday and the day before. I got pretty hammered the first night and started giggling when G.C Boy came into the house because of something that only Sam has heard....( the g.c mixup) I also have realized when I am drunk or stoned I become obsessed with eating apples.

I found out what pretty movie mans name is




Drum Role Please


ITS JRDN
I took the vowels out. Weird how one of Jackies best friends has the same name... Hmm.. Oh Well Here I Come!!!

Grilled Cheese May Be Good,

But Not That Good.

What Have I Done?
Am I Happy With It?
Christmas Was Quite Intriguing, But Was It Worth It?
Jesse Says To Let It Be And Just Remember Who I Am.
It's To Hard To Be Let Down Like This.
You Were All Right I Got Too Caught Up In The Dream World.
But Now I've Rubbed The Sleep From My Eyes And Woken Up.
I Need Something New To Believe In.
Not Someone Who Promises Me Grilled Cheeses For Favours.

Silence, Just Silence.

Christmas is too loud.

Shhh.

Words To Live By.

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness. For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people. For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry. For beautiful hair, let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day. For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone. People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms. As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands; one for helping yourself, and the other for helping others.

-Audrey Hepburn

Let It Bleed.

Let it bleed Take the red for what it's worth woah
Watch the fire
Fill your lungs with smoke for the last time
If you feel like dying you might wanna sing!

Creepy Journal Entry #90275815829527.

10:45am

Pretty Movie Man Came Into Dairy Queen, He was as gorgeous as ever he was wearing a black button up jacket plaid dress pants and of course his Movie Gallery uni.

Uber Fantastique!

See what I did there? To different languages combined!

F.Y.I

I Didn't Fuck Him.

Is It Progression If A Cannibal Uses A Fork?

I seriously have no idea what to write about anymore.
I think this blog was just for me to rant my anger about Steven to people..but now that that really has any effect on me because I measured the size of his ego. I really don't know what to do anymore. So I don't really know how often I will blog...but who knows maybe something else will happen to make me need to blog
Like Buttons aka Movie Store Man aka Ant.

Biting the flesh from your finger.You know, I just can't help myself.I wish to believe, but belief is a graveyard.May this light never see morning, as finally one will not.Maybe you're the one that's overrated.Shriek and scream much too horrified to speak.

Big Casino.

The Name of this blog, you want to know where it came from? It is the song that changed my life. I was walking home from Jackies house this wonderful eve and this song came on and all of a sudden I realized how beautiful life is and that I will be ok. That my life is good and I will not allow him to run my life anymore. You hear that Steven? I will be OKAY! I will find someone that will make me happy. I have accepted you have moved on and I realize I will too. I have a feeling inside me that hasn't been there in a while its called happiness.
Thank You Jimmy Eat World
Thank You Snow, You Were Right Sam, Good Things Do Happen When It Snows.

I'll accept with poise, with grace When they draw my name from the lottery And they'll say 'All the salt in the world couldn't melt that ice' I'm the one who gets away I'm a New Jersey success-story And they'll say 'Lord, give me a chance to shake that hand'

Twilight & Traveling.

Twilight was Freaking amazing. (Obvi)

But what wasn't toats amazing was the old fat woman kicking my seat constantly and making disgusting noises oh! and of course screaming about her back pain.

Tomorrow I am leaving to Edmonton, and I am toats excited but I am going to miss home. Weird ? Definatly.

Grande Prairie was a blast The Rabbit Hole? New favourite store ever! There was so much Bowie vinyl I didn't know what to do with myself.

Well This will be the last post for a very long while things will be quite busy until the second week of December.

Exciting? NO.

The Shining.

All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.

Half Jack.

Imma Gunna Kill Him.
GET THE HINT PLEASE!
I want to stop throwing myself at you.

Ian #2 & Apples.

I have never felt so alone in my life. God At a party you do not hole up in a bedroom and eat an apple. You do crazy things and let your hair down. Thank god for Jordan, and definatly the DQ boys.


Oh yeah kids make sure you ask Sam or I to show you our amazing french video also with the help of Joel, Patrick and of course Mikey.


My Ipod Killed itself again.... And then resurected itself.......again.

Eyes.

Take off your sunglasses inside; I want to see your eyes.

Major Events of the Day.

1. He asked me to chew his gum...weird?
2.Kicked Her out of my locker (So funny). But thats what you get for making fun of me to much.
3. Some kid punched me in the jaw, not so funny.
4. And last but certainly not least I rented Degrassi The 6th Season Hoorah!

Ode To Judy Blume.

Hey Love?, It's Me Tylar, Care To Shoot Me In The Face?

Kay Thanks.

Jackie Devon Shneider Cade.

You told me to write a blog about you so.


I love you Jackie.

Oh Dearest M&Ms..

Never Forget Me.

Quote.

"Are you sad we missed it?"

"This is it."


-Nick and Norah's Infinite playlist.

Nick and Norah.

Nick and Norah's Infinate Playlist= Amazing.
Micheal Cera= Future Husband.
Music= fantastic.
Gay Best Friend= Chinese.

Probably one of the best movies I have seen this year, super funny super cool and the gum thing.. yeah thats super gross.
I think I would marry this movie if it were possible to marry an inanimate object and I wasn't already going to marry Micheal Cera.
If you haven't seen it yet, well GET OUT THERE SOLDIERS!

P.S Did I tell you I started Christmas shopping? Oh yeah I did Oops.

Ramble.

I Finally got my photo i.d for my learners licence. I have had my learners since when? Oh yeah May!

I have started Christmas shopping Bitches!

Bartender.

Last night was a lot of fun. I went to Sam's birthday party and it was actually great fun! I got extremely inebriated and was a quite bad influence on the young ones. It was very strange being in the state that I was I still took care of my dear little Ryan and of course our little first timer. I mixed killer drinks kept everyone laughing, I even taught my friends about what not to eat when they are drunk and I am betting they are thanking me to the heavens about not letting them eat cheese.
I watched an excellent movie this morning as I was nursing my not to bad hang over called Dracula 2000 and I am giving it two thumbs up. I love that Wes Craven added in somethings for those die hard vampire/Dracula fans would understand. That is why I love Wes Craven. If you don't know who that is he also did the Scream Trilogy which is also tres fantastique! But that is a whole other story for a whole other time.

About A Girl.

So show me something we haven't heard yet,

Serously. I need something new and well I can't seen to be able to find anything around here.
I need something or someone to look forward to. I miss that a lot.
One Day.

Right now I am being me and having fun doing it. I had a really good day today. No Whining!
A big feat in Tylarland. Maybe I will get a whole week!

Well we have to start small I probably shouldn't get ahead of myself. But I am actually excited for this weekend and I think I may have fun!

Zombie Ipod?

I brought my Ipod back from the dead! yeah!

Attack of the Quiz.

I am once again addicted to quizilla.
What is wrong with me.

MMMBOP.

Have you ever had that feeling where you think everything is going well even if people are always yelling at you, theres drama in your life and you where swamped in homework up to your neck? Well I do. I am happy. YAY! I haven't been truly happy in a long time and I am not quite there yet but I am getting there.

When life gives you lemons dance
Dance like theres a muskrat in your pants
At least thats what the guy on Hey Arnold says.

All Hail The Heartbreaker.

I had the notion that you'd make me change my ways
My bad habits would be gone in a matter of days
I had the feeling that you'd open up my eyes
To a whole new world that had since been in disguise

But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are

So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far I

had the notion that you'd make me forget the world
But your undecisive mind shows me that
You are "just another girl"
I had the feeling that those looks you gave me were real
What if I ripped your heart apart at the seams
Maybe then you'd know how I feel

But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are

So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me J
ust to forget your sweater so far

I can honestly say
That I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body T
hat cause my comatose to begin

I will sleep another day
I don't really need to anyway
What's the point when my dreams are infected
With words you used to say
I will breathe in a moment
As long as I keep my distance
I wouldn't want to go messing anything up

So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about you constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect
Your life anymore
I knew it the moment you walked into the door

I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
I guess that's how this one's gonna go
I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
You've got me down on my knees and I proclaim
All hail the heartbreaker

Thanksgiving? More like Thank god it's over.

So yet again I have had a horrible Thanksgiving. My family takes the oh a couple drinks with dinner thing far to seriously. So it was horrible Sam and I finally got sick of it and took a cab home at 1:00. All though the pumpkin cheesecake was to DIE for (serious)
Another thing seriously how hard is it for people to hire a camera crew? I went through two movies last night and couldn't watch them because they were that cheesy independent crap. Its cool to be artistic but when I am trying to watch a scary movie I want a camera crew. Even in Blair Witch you can tell they have a camera crew for god sake. Take the extra loan out on your house kids and do it up right.

Cars not Crying

So this is it huh? This is life alone....no wonder I didn't like it much. Well I will just have to get used to it. I'm done crying done being pitiful and anoying. This is my Rebirth and I will make it work.


On a much better note.. I have a car! Some convicted felon gave me his car, no shit. He kidnapped his kid and toted her all the way to Washington then turned himself in. And called and said " Hey I know your daughter should be driving soon so hey she can have my car!" He never drove the car it was sitting down at Gearjammer waiting to be picked up :) It is pretty amazing for a first car. It has comand start and air conditioning Hells yes. Look out road im a coming.

So This Is It Huh?

Don't you hate it when your always right? Deep in your mind you have an idea of what you think will happen, you don't tell anyone about it or say anything but deep down you know its going to happen. I get it all the time. Somehow I just know when something bad is going to happen. I knew before my step dad even called that he was in a car crash. I knew before class even started I was going to have to sit with my enemy and now I even knew before my boyfriend even picked me up that he was going to break up with me.

He had been distant for a while but I didn't think that he would break up with me. Especially how it happened. He told me that he just wanted to be friends because he just really didn't want to date right now. I mean come on we had been dating for 14 months and all of a sudden he just doesn't want to date? He told me that it had nothing to do with me and he still loved me and I would always be his best friend. But he just needed to be alone and not have to worry about anything for a while. He told me I needed to see other people if we where ever to get serious because he had only been my second boyfriend. It hurts so much when he just says see you around at the end of a phone call instead of I love you and I will talk to you tomorrow.

But I guess this is a new era in my life. We will see what happens. I think that and I cringe. I try to be a big girl I even went out last night but... His parents where at the movie I went to. That was so killer. I had to run and duck into the car. So they wouldn't see me. I just can't handle this stuff I think I am OK and then it is night time and I have to go to sleep and there is no way that I am falling asleep and then when four in the morning rolls around I just get up and watch t.v. It's only been a couple of days so maybe it will get better? I hope so because right now I have know idea what I am going to do.

I tried to think positively and think that now I am free and I can date other people and not have to worry about anything but I don't think that I can I just feel bad because what if he comes around when I am with someone else ? I just wish he would come back. But at the same time do I really? Maybe I should take his advice. Maybe I should see whats out there before I just decide to marry him and never know.


Mood: Thoughtful
Song: Golden-Fall Out Boy