Let The Love Tear Us Apart.

.You With The Amish Haircut.

2009-05-07T23:29:00.000-07:00

I wanna go to Tim Hortons and listen to you order a large ham and swiss on white with no tomatoes or tim sauce. And steal your ice capp. We need to hang. This is like one of the ways I can contact you so STEVEN CALL ME. WE NEED TO LISTEN TO THE MISFITS. ; Cheers!

Holla!

2009-05-02T20:14:00.000-07:00

Tylar Is In O-Town BITCHES!

Skinny Love.

2009-04-25T10:49:00.000-07:00

This Is Not, I Repeat Not! Working Out For Me. Maybe I Should Give Up? Say See You Later And Go And Do Something Else.
I Say I Will Leave It ; But You Want The Truth?

I Am In Far Too Deep.

I told you to be patient

I told you to be fine

I told you to be balanced

I told you to be kind

In the morning I'll be with you

But it will be a different "kind"

I'll be holding all the tickets

And you'll be owning all the fines

Yours To Keep.

2009-04-13T20:39:00.000-07:00

Well Happy Easter Everyone,
I believe this weekend has made way for some fantastical things to happen next week. :D I do believe this is the beginning. It's going to suck when your gone but we will make the best of the time we have.
And by the way?
Your my boyfriend
kthanx.

We Gon Kill This Bitch!

2009-03-27T11:45:00.003-07:00

When I get back to town. Sam you and I are gonna kill this rumor crap because I am not ruining this relationship and thats fact.

For Emma, Forever Ago.

2009-03-24T11:13:00.000-07:00

So I am in Edmonton.... Yeah... I Am. It's pretty fun so far. My cousin Jesse lives right by a mall. So I have already gone to HMV and Payless. Yeah.. I went to other stores too but those were the only ones I bought anything at. I am excited to go to school with Jesse tomorrow because he has pretty cool friends and he goes to a performing arts high school. The first night I was here I went and saw him in My Fair Lady. It was so amazing!!! I have also found my new favourite game. Sing it. It is so great. He has Disney and HSM Sing it. And it was really fun haha. OH and Jesse gave me his hair straightener!!!!!! OMFG Best straightner I have ever ever seenSam it actually straightens my hair. It doesnt get STATICKYYYY. I think today I am going to venture by myself and go to wendys and see whats going down around this place. haha I really like it here. and I almost just want to come to school here next year but id miss yall.

Ok so my ride here? 45 min.
I got the window seat.
Satelite tv
They let me take my hand sanitizer on the plane.
But I still hated my flight yanno why?The guy beside me had the CLICKERRRRRR on on his ipod. The most ridiculous thing. I wanted to kill him. And it wasnt just that he really could not decide between what songs he was going to listen to and he was obsessed with his ipod the moment he got on the plane ear phones in. The moment the captain said you could use your ipods ear phones in the moment we landed You guessed it earphones in. Now we got to Edmonton 10 minutes early. I dont think this guy would be alive if it had taken any longer than it did.
Thank you and Goodday.

Hide And Seek.

2009-03-15T22:58:00.000-07:00

It's Funny How You Don't Think I Take You Seriously. I Don't Doubt You Will Go For Gold. I Think It's Stupid. But I Know your Not Lying. I Am Kind Of Mad You Told Me Though Because Now I Can't Sleep and I Worry About You, Yeah You.

I'm Infected.

2009-03-10T22:23:00.000-07:00

My Life is being lived out as Repo! The Genetic Opera, I cannot stop and it is really starting to suck.
Damn you Jordan!!!!!

Flowers In The Window.

2009-02-22T09:16:00.000-08:00

I am really glad that I am getting to know Jordan its nice to have a new friend. And I am psyched to finish gossip girl on tuesday because I am actually enjoying making fun of Chuck for the third time hahaha.

If Thats What Your Into.

2009-02-17T17:46:00.000-08:00

He Said Yes YAY!
I am hanging out with him on Saturday.

Supa Hella YEAH!

If you want me to, I can hang 'round with you

If I only knew, that's what you're into

You and him, him and you

If that's what you're into

Him hangin' round, around you

You hangin' round, yeah you're there too

Untitled Due To Lack Of Creativity.

2009-02-15T18:48:00.000-08:00

Soon.

Headfirst Slide Into Cooperstown On A Bad Bet.

2009-02-09T17:44:00.000-08:00

Day 6 of my captivity. Will it ever end? I don't like having parents. Especially parents who need hearing aids. I am so sorry to all of you who have to deal with parents on a daily basis. I cannot wait until my parents come home. It is driving me insane! They ask to many questions and they force me to eat and converse with them, they even come into my room. Its dispicable. I hate it. Yet I will never be a parent like my mother is. But that is ok because my kids wont get used to having no parents and then get thrown into it every couple years when they want to go for a vacation.

Hella Depressed.

But I will never end up like him
Behind my back I already am
Keep a calendar, this way you will always know

So True.

2009-02-04T19:44:00.000-08:00

Eight Of Nine.

2009-01-30T10:28:00.000-08:00

Yesterday Sam and I cooked her father dinner for his birthday and mannn was it yummy. After dinner he took us to the movie store because he just loves us like that and knew I wanted to go see Movie Man. When he saw me he smiled real big and when I came up to the till he actually initiated a conversation!!!! It was fantastic! HE READDDSSS. :D

Also I have a future without principles math ! YEHAA. I am going to go to school in Edmonton at Grant McEwan. I want to take the Public Relations course and then work for some NGO and eventually work in Switzerland :D

It was a verrryy good day yesterday.

It's time that I made things right

For the first time,since the last time.

Let this moment of clarity

Lift this curse that has been cast upon me.

♥

Sowing Season.

2009-01-28T20:03:00.000-08:00

Need A Break STAT.

I am on the mend.

At least now I can say that I am trying.

And I hope you will forget things I still lack.

Is it in you now,To bear to hear the truth that you have spoken

Twisted up by knaves, To make a trap for fools?

♥

The Fear.

2009-01-25T21:46:00.000-08:00

I am going through some savage withdrawls. I need to continue on the path to get my man! That sounds extremely cheesy but Cereal! It has been over a week. We need some progress.

On another note, First semester is almost over one exam to go and I am very excited. I cannot wait for second semester like who isnt excited for lit?

My birthday is coming up and so is my parents departure. I am not excited for my birthday. I just want to watch movies and chill but thats not enough. No, you will see what I mean in days coming.

I havent spoken to my father in a week and a half. Which is fine with me except he owes me money. That kinda sucks. My father and I have never really gotten along I think we are to alike. Except for the fact that he is crazy depressed and takes it out on me as if I am his psychiatrist. And if I do that to one of you every day of my like I am so sorry and please shoot me.

I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore

I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore

When do you think it will all become clear?

‘Cuz I’m being taken over by

The Fear

♥

My Heart Is An Apple.

2009-01-19T17:21:00.000-08:00

Have you ever felt like you have just made a huge fool of yourself?
Thats how I feel right now and I wish I could take this whole day back.

-------

I'll admit I'm full of shit

That's how I know I love you

That's how I know I trust you,

You're not sure if there's a right or wrong

But it feels like there is when I treat you like this

♥

Coffees For Closers.

2009-01-18T18:30:00.000-08:00

Ok so I have to have to blog. So much has happened. What would you like to hear first the bad or the amazing? Lets go with bad first because well the wait to hear the good stuff is worth the wait.

First my Dad and I got into a huggeeee fight yesterday. I am so sick of my father treating me like I am his psychiatrist and I finally told him. He would not stop going on about how my step dad stole his life. Well sorry Dad you do realize you and mom broke up over six years ago. Shes moved on and you should too. He didnt steal your life and your goals thats the whole point of finding someone new is finding someone who shares your goals and my Mom did that. Then he started going on about how I stick up for my step dad. I dont stick up for him I am just not going to allow my father to talk badly about someone who has done nothing to him. My mom and stepdad never talk badly about my father so why should he talk badly about them? Exactly. So I dont think we will be talking for a while and frankly thats fine with me.

Now for the amazing news. He is giving me his extra copy of Trainspotting and I am goiing to lend him the book!!!!!!!!!! Yay! I told you this would happen and it is!!! I can just tell this is going to be good. I will keep you posted because he told me to come and get it tomorrow so I will make sure to blog of course!!!

Though change will come

Oh change will come

♥

What A Catch, Donnie.

2009-01-15T21:12:00.000-08:00

Ok Cereal. (Nesquick and Reese Cup) I cannot wait until I go to the movie store with the information I have found. I found out his REAL last name and his favourite movie. This is good info for a movie store :D Not to mention it is one of my favourite movies as well as favourite book. I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited for my birthday and staying with my grandparents. Here are all the reasons it rocks.

1. Grandma makes me lunch.
2. Grandma's house is close to school so no worries about walking home from school.
3. She will drive me all over.
4. They leave me alone.
5. My door has a lock.
6. No pets.
7. Dinner EVERY night.
8. Big bed.
9. MONEY
10. 2 whole weeks away from my parents.

I got troubled thoughts

And the self-esteem to match

What a catch, what a catch

And all I can think of

Is the way I'm the one

Who charmed the one

Who gave up on you

♥

Featuring Some Of Your Favourite Words.

2009-01-03T02:25:00.001-08:00

Words don't seem to come so easy

When I need them oh so badly

Here's to playing tug of war with my vocal chords.

♥

Notebook Malfunction of '08.

2008-12-30T18:48:00.000-08:00

I am in an excellent mood because Grilled Cheese Boy? Did shit with the fat chick HAHA!! Then got stuck doing the walk of shame because we ditched him because we were tired of waiting for him to get his rocks off. BAHHHHH So amazing.

Today I did laundry and forgot to check the pockets. Hence the title. There was wet paper bits everywhere.

Drank Margaritas with Jordon yesterday and the day before. I got pretty hammered the first night and started giggling when G.C Boy came into the house because of something that only Sam has heard....( the g.c mixup) I also have realized when I am drunk or stoned I become obsessed with eating apples.

I found out what pretty movie mans name is

Drum Role Please

ITS JRDN
I took the vowels out. Weird how one of Jackies best friends has the same name... Hmm.. Oh Well Here I Come!!!

Grilled Cheese May Be Good,

2008-12-28T12:50:00.000-08:00

But Not That Good.

What Have I Done?
Am I Happy With It?
Christmas Was Quite Intriguing, But Was It Worth It?
Jesse Says To Let It Be And Just Remember Who I Am.
It's To Hard To Be Let Down Like This.
You Were All Right I Got Too Caught Up In The Dream World.
But Now I've Rubbed The Sleep From My Eyes And Woken Up.
I Need Something New To Believe In.
Not Someone Who Promises Me Grilled Cheeses For Favours.

Silence, Just Silence.

2008-12-25T00:03:00.001-08:00

Christmas is too loud.

Shhh.

Words To Live By.

2008-12-24T14:47:00.001-08:00

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness. For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people. For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry. For beautiful hair, let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day. For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone. People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms. As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands; one for helping yourself, and the other for helping others.

-Audrey Hepburn

Let It Bleed.

2008-12-22T23:35:00.000-08:00

Let it bleed Take the red for what it's worth woah
Watch the fire
Fill your lungs with smoke for the last time
If you feel like dying you might wanna sing!

Creepy Journal Entry #90275815829527.

2008-12-22T15:37:00.000-08:00

10:45am

Pretty Movie Man Came Into Dairy Queen, He was as gorgeous as ever he was wearing a black button up jacket plaid dress pants and of course his Movie Gallery uni.

Uber Fantastique!

See what I did there? To different languages combined!

F.Y.I

2008-12-16T13:57:00.000-08:00

I Didn't Fuck Him.

Is It Progression If A Cannibal Uses A Fork?

2008-12-10T14:41:00.000-08:00

I seriously have no idea what to write about anymore.
I think this blog was just for me to rant my anger about Steven to people..but now that that really has any effect on me because I measured the size of his ego. I really don't know what to do anymore. So I don't really know how often I will blog...but who knows maybe something else will happen to make me need to blog
Like Buttons aka Movie Store Man aka Ant.

Biting the flesh from your finger.You know, I just can't help myself.I wish to believe, but belief is a graveyard.May this light never see morning, as finally one will not.Maybe you're the one that's overrated.Shriek and scream much too horrified to speak.

Big Casino.

2008-12-06T23:41:00.000-08:00

The Name of this blog, you want to know where it came from? It is the song that changed my life. I was walking home from Jackies house this wonderful eve and this song came on and all of a sudden I realized how beautiful life is and that I will be ok. That my life is good and I will not allow him to run my life anymore. You hear that Steven? I will be OKAY! I will find someone that will make me happy. I have accepted you have moved on and I realize I will too. I have a feeling inside me that hasn't been there in a while its called happiness.
Thank You Jimmy Eat World
Thank You Snow, You Were Right Sam, Good Things Do Happen When It Snows.

I'll accept with poise, with grace When they draw my name from the lottery And they'll say 'All the salt in the world couldn't melt that ice' I'm the one who gets away I'm a New Jersey success-story And they'll say 'Lord, give me a chance to shake that hand'

Twilight & Traveling.

2008-11-23T11:16:00.000-08:00

Twilight was Freaking amazing. (Obvi)

But what wasn't toats amazing was the old fat woman kicking my seat constantly and making disgusting noises oh! and of course screaming about her back pain.

Tomorrow I am leaving to Edmonton, and I am toats excited but I am going to miss home. Weird ? Definatly.

Grande Prairie was a blast The Rabbit Hole? New favourite store ever! There was so much Bowie vinyl I didn't know what to do with myself.

Well This will be the last post for a very long while things will be quite busy until the second week of December.

Exciting? NO.

The Shining.

2008-11-16T19:29:00.000-08:00

All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.
All Work and No Play Makes Tylar A Dull Girl.

Half Jack.

2008-11-08T09:48:00.000-08:00

Imma Gunna Kill Him.
GET THE HINT PLEASE!
I want to stop throwing myself at you.

Ian #2 & Apples.

2008-11-04T14:31:00.000-08:00

I have never felt so alone in my life. God At a party you do not hole up in a bedroom and eat an apple. You do crazy things and let your hair down. Thank god for Jordan, and definatly the DQ boys.

Oh yeah kids make sure you ask Sam or I to show you our amazing french video also with the help of Joel, Patrick and of course Mikey.

My Ipod Killed itself again.... And then resurected itself.......again.

Eyes.

2008-10-30T18:08:00.001-07:00

Take off your sunglasses inside; I want to see your eyes.

Major Events of the Day.

2008-10-27T16:27:00.001-07:00

1. He asked me to chew his gum...weird?
2.Kicked Her out of my locker (So funny). But thats what you get for making fun of me to much.
3. Some kid punched me in the jaw, not so funny.
4. And last but certainly not least I rented Degrassi The 6th Season Hoorah!

Ode To Judy Blume.

2008-10-24T20:57:00.000-07:00

Hey Love?, It's Me Tylar, Care To Shoot Me In The Face?

Kay Thanks.

Jackie Devon Shneider Cade.

2008-10-24T13:54:00.003-07:00

You told me to write a blog about you so.

I love you Jackie.

Oh Dearest M&Ms..

2008-10-23T20:06:00.001-07:00

Never Forget Me.

Quote.

2008-10-22T18:53:00.001-07:00

"Are you sad we missed it?"

"This is it."

-Nick and Norah's Infinite playlist.

Nick and Norah.

2008-10-21T17:44:00.000-07:00

Nick and Norah's Infinate Playlist= Amazing.
Micheal Cera= Future Husband.
Music= fantastic.
Gay Best Friend= Chinese.

Probably one of the best movies I have seen this year, super funny super cool and the gum thing.. yeah thats super gross.
I think I would marry this movie if it were possible to marry an inanimate object and I wasn't already going to marry Micheal Cera.
If you haven't seen it yet, well GET OUT THERE SOLDIERS!

P.S Did I tell you I started Christmas shopping? Oh yeah I did Oops.

Ramble.

2008-10-21T17:42:00.000-07:00

I Finally got my photo i.d for my learners licence. I have had my learners since when? Oh yeah May!

I have started Christmas shopping Bitches!

Bartender.

2008-10-18T19:48:00.000-07:00

Last night was a lot of fun. I went to Sam's birthday party and it was actually great fun! I got extremely inebriated and was a quite bad influence on the young ones. It was very strange being in the state that I was I still took care of my dear little Ryan and of course our little first timer. I mixed killer drinks kept everyone laughing, I even taught my friends about what not to eat when they are drunk and I am betting they are thanking me to the heavens about not letting them eat cheese.
I watched an excellent movie this morning as I was nursing my not to bad hang over called Dracula 2000 and I am giving it two thumbs up. I love that Wes Craven added in somethings for those die hard vampire/Dracula fans would understand. That is why I love Wes Craven. If you don't know who that is he also did the Scream Trilogy which is also tres fantastique! But that is a whole other story for a whole other time.

About A Girl.

2008-10-17T16:36:00.000-07:00

So show me something we haven't heard yet,

Serously. I need something new and well I can't seen to be able to find anything around here.
I need something or someone to look forward to. I miss that a lot.
One Day.

Right now I am being me and having fun doing it. I had a really good day today. No Whining!
A big feat in Tylarland. Maybe I will get a whole week!

Well we have to start small I probably shouldn't get ahead of myself. But I am actually excited for this weekend and I think I may have fun!

Zombie Ipod?

2008-10-17T08:09:00.001-07:00

I brought my Ipod back from the dead! yeah!

Attack of the Quiz.

2008-10-14T19:00:00.000-07:00

I am once again addicted to quizilla.
What is wrong with me.

MMMBOP.

2008-10-14T17:21:00.000-07:00

Have you ever had that feeling where you think everything is going well even if people are always yelling at you, theres drama in your life and you where swamped in homework up to your neck? Well I do. I am happy. YAY! I haven't been truly happy in a long time and I am not quite there yet but I am getting there.

When life gives you lemons dance
Dance like theres a muskrat in your pants
At least thats what the guy on Hey Arnold says.

All Hail The Heartbreaker.

2008-10-13T12:26:00.000-07:00

I had the notion that you'd make me change my ways
My bad habits would be gone in a matter of days
I had the feeling that you'd open up my eyes
To a whole new world that had since been in disguise

But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are

So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far I

had the notion that you'd make me forget the world
But your undecisive mind shows me that
You are "just another girl"
I had the feeling that those looks you gave me were real
What if I ripped your heart apart at the seams
Maybe then you'd know how I feel

But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are

So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me J
ust to forget your sweater so far

I can honestly say
That I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body T
hat cause my comatose to begin

I will sleep another day
I don't really need to anyway
What's the point when my dreams are infected
With words you used to say
I will breathe in a moment
As long as I keep my distance
I wouldn't want to go messing anything up

So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about you constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect
Your life anymore
I knew it the moment you walked into the door

I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
I guess that's how this one's gonna go
I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
You've got me down on my knees and I proclaim
All hail the heartbreaker

Thanksgiving? More like Thank god it's over.

2008-10-13T12:19:00.000-07:00

So yet again I have had a horrible Thanksgiving. My family takes the oh a couple drinks with dinner thing far to seriously. So it was horrible Sam and I finally got sick of it and took a cab home at 1:00. All though the pumpkin cheesecake was to DIE for (serious)
Another thing seriously how hard is it for people to hire a camera crew? I went through two movies last night and couldn't watch them because they were that cheesy independent crap. Its cool to be artistic but when I am trying to watch a scary movie I want a camera crew. Even in Blair Witch you can tell they have a camera crew for god sake. Take the extra loan out on your house kids and do it up right.

Cars not Crying

2008-10-12T11:27:00.000-07:00

So this is it huh? This is life alone....no wonder I didn't like it much. Well I will just have to get used to it. I'm done crying done being pitiful and anoying. This is my Rebirth and I will make it work.

On a much better note.. I have a car! Some convicted felon gave me his car, no shit. He kidnapped his kid and toted her all the way to Washington then turned himself in. And called and said " Hey I know your daughter should be driving soon so hey she can have my car!" He never drove the car it was sitting down at Gearjammer waiting to be picked up :) It is pretty amazing for a first car. It has comand start and air conditioning Hells yes. Look out road im a coming.

So This Is It Huh?

2008-07-08T10:47:00.000-07:00

Don't you hate it when your always right? Deep in your mind you have an idea of what you think will happen, you don't tell anyone about it or say anything but deep down you know its going to happen. I get it all the time. Somehow I just know when something bad is going to happen. I knew before my step dad even called that he was in a car crash. I knew before class even started I was going to have to sit with my enemy and now I even knew before my boyfriend even picked me up that he was going to break up with me.

He had been distant for a while but I didn't think that he would break up with me. Especially how it happened. He told me that he just wanted to be friends because he just really didn't want to date right now. I mean come on we had been dating for 14 months and all of a sudden he just doesn't want to date? He told me that it had nothing to do with me and he still loved me and I would always be his best friend. But he just needed to be alone and not have to worry about anything for a while. He told me I needed to see other people if we where ever to get serious because he had only been my second boyfriend. It hurts so much when he just says see you around at the end of a phone call instead of I love you and I will talk to you tomorrow.

But I guess this is a new era in my life. We will see what happens. I think that and I cringe. I try to be a big girl I even went out last night but... His parents where at the movie I went to. That was so killer. I had to run and duck into the car. So they wouldn't see me. I just can't handle this stuff I think I am OK and then it is night time and I have to go to sleep and there is no way that I am falling asleep and then when four in the morning rolls around I just get up and watch t.v. It's only been a couple of days so maybe it will get better? I hope so because right now I have know idea what I am going to do.

I tried to think positively and think that now I am free and I can date other people and not have to worry about anything but I don't think that I can I just feel bad because what if he comes around when I am with someone else ? I just wish he would come back. But at the same time do I really? Maybe I should take his advice. Maybe I should see whats out there before I just decide to marry him and never know.

Mood: Thoughtful
Song: Golden-Fall Out Boy